my baby is the best thing i ever did.
i am so in love with him. i had no idea my heart could be filled with so much love.
i put him down in his crib tonight around 7pm and two hours later he woke up crying. i scooped him up, wrapped him in his blanket and rocked him in my arms until his eyes closed.
i thought about putting him back in his crib but i couldn't, i had to be close.
so i laid him down on our bed and cuddled my sleeping babe.
i love to watch him sleep.
i love to pull back the covers and look at his little feet.
i love to kiss his baby lips and smell his baby breath.
i love when he smiles in his sleep.
i love when he shifts to snuggle closer to me.
i knew that i would love him. i knew that having a baby would transform my life. i knew it would bring michael and i closer together.
but the feelings, the bond, the unconditional love...the shear joy i have for my son is indescribable.
and to know that this perfect little creature was created out love...wow. michael gave me a gift and i am so very blessed to have my two guys.
for a while i wondered what my purpose was here in this world (yeah cheesy but true). i used to think what gods plan for me would be. will i ever feel totally and completely fullfilled? YES.
i am here for son. my purpose is to be caleb's mommy. he is why i am here.
thank you michael for loving me. thank you for our son.
smiling is so easy because of the two of you.